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Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Haiz kinda bored now so blogging...

Went for the SP Microbiology Course today...it was boring..
3 hour lecture of DNA & Mircobiology alongside 4 hours of boring practical..
Didn't expect it to be so sian...could barely grasp the finer points of the lecture.

For some masochistic reason I agreed to skip Civil Def. badge for that.
Not really the best decision but heck it...
Lecturer basically went really in-depth about DNA & Micro-organisms only...
Not the most interesting topic, but it kept my mind from wandering too much..

I listened for 2 hours then stoned for the last section on Mircobiology.
Read too many books about the biological warfare until it bores me...
I doodled mostly, and it was not the most productive..

Suicide scene on TV now 0_o No wait failed attempt...==
I see no point in commiting suicide if there's so many problems in one's life...
I'd rather jump off a building without regrets instead of slashing my wrists over a boy..
Still, I know way too many people with that issue so >.<

Talked a little about alot of things today with Shi Hui & Gigi...
whenever the course got boring we started crapping...sigh...
Long story short, we talked about friendships/leadership etc.
A wide range of topics typical for a normal kid...

The only part that seemed to stick with me was when we mentioned leadership..
Is the world convinced that it is easy to lead?
As a secondary 3 I find myself wondering why I have to be a CCA leader.
Not that I don't like being captain (I don't love it, but its something.)

From what was discussed, I realized that most people had 2 conceptions of leaders:
the 1st type is convinced leadership is easy and should not have a large impact.
the 2nd type is convinced leadership is hell and will drastically impact the leader.
Usually, both types only begin to consider the opposition's POV in actual leadership positions...

As a captain, I keep feeling obligated to work for my team.
It feels as though every junior is dependant on a senior to provide inspiration & determination...
And being captain, it feels like I have to be that senior for all of my juniors...
Took me a long time to get over that feeling, and I learnt most of it the hard way..

I guess the hardest part of being a leader is being the role model..
Sometimes it feels like the only emotion I can show is happiness, or better yet, none whatsoever.
If I get upset or angry, the team gets demoralized and afraid...
If I get excited or too happy, the team loses control and everything gets screwed..

I wonder if this is part of the reason why everything only has 1 leader
Maybe its up to that person to take up the job and put on that mask everyday
Their duty to ensure the team is fine and things go smoothly...
Oddly, I don't really mind being that person (that much), if it makes my CCA run well..

Sorry for the strange long post reader...if any...
My mind drifts way too much...

ThE SinneRs, ThE CreatoRs, ThE slackeRs.
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aT appRoximately.. 8:32 AM

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Uh, I have nothing better to do so I'm posting...
Been a damn long time since the last post, so I'm not going to bother updating on everything...
Major stuff that went down: OBS, Z1 Fencing Gala, Cheering Comp

OBS:
It was a good experience, and it will stay with me for a long long time.
First time I was really pushed to my limits, physically and mentally...
Still remember how it was possible to squeeze sweat out of my shirt at the end of the day...
lol...
OBS mainly centred on planning & executing the Land & Sea expidition,
Land ex. was trekking 4km around Pulau Ubin with 25kg bags...
Sea ex. was about the same, more fun but we got lost too..
kayaked 8km around Ubin, in rough sea and muddy mangroves..

At somepoint I realized I was having serious anger issues..
kinda pissed alot of people off without realizing, sorry for that..
had alot of time to reflect during those 5D4N and it helped alot.

Overall, I had fun at OBS but it will take awhile to be able to go back
(I.E. when I forget how bloody tiring it was...0_o)

ZFencing Gala:
Last competition for Sec 3 year, guess it was quite fun.
BPGHS took back 3 bronzes and 1 gold, very good job by the juniors & seniors
didn't win anything personally, and I guess it screwd me over for awhile...
Don't like the experience of being the only person without a medal..

Still, we took back pride for BPGHS and a possibility for bragging rights.
Haven't settled the prize giving ceremony yet though...0.o

Cheering Comp 2010:
I guess cheering comp this year was pretty fun (3L1 Hearts FTW)
Got 2nd place, lost to M2 but screw that..

Looking back, I suppose that this event helped bond the class
For those 15 or so minutes we spent onstage, everyone was able to put aside their inhibitions and just play.
Never really saw that happen with the class before, and it was pretty epic..
Of course, the general animosity toward M2 helped too...but it is past :x

Zzz...okay done being bored now, can't post anything too personal here anyway...
CT coming up, hope I don't fail anything again...I actually did homework this time..
Sian...okay bye.

ThE SinneRs, ThE CreatoRs, ThE slackeRs.

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aT appRoximately.. 9:41 AM

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Back from level camp...last time I'll ever have to go through that again...
No intention to list out every little detail, so this might be abit vague...

Major events 1:Pitching of tents

It was fun, alot easier than G&S camp. Pitched 8 man ridge in about 20 minutes
So glad group 7 didn't tio the end tents; serious backflow of rainwater there 0_o
My tent was okay; rmb group 8's tent main guyline collasped...
fixed it on the 2nd night when members were busy screaming about their tent falling down & killing them
Amazing how retying it fell to me & my bruder that were bored.

Major event 2: Sarimbun Challenge

4 hours, 6 stations at Own Time Own Target
This amazing race game was quite well planned, most of the stations were fun.
Think the more memorable ones were Milo Pool & last one.
Milo pool seriously showed off the more courageous ppl , last one test our patience...

Major event 3: Land Ex.; Kayaking; High Element

okay...land ex. was an epic fail for group 7...all the stations were tyco..
the trek was inspiring in the sense that it gave a chance for people to reflect while walking
or display the tolerence level of ppl to not in-fight once we were tired..

Kayaking instructor did not remember BPGHS G&S :[
fun though; paired with Hui Ting cuz she steer & I row.

High element was short duration, but I took away more from it.
1st girl to get on the single log because I stood near the belay team.
From the ground, Single log element looks easy because it was quite steady...
climb up and the log feels like shaking lidat; rope burn from gripping the belay line damn tight.

Major event 4 : Campfire

More of a formality, the campfire for this camp was quite well done.
Everyone mantained the 'high' environment (except those gl kias that talk shit)
Bandalog's performance was average, yet it was insanely fun to play.

overall, this camp could have been quite fun if I was serious about it..
when I was packing for sec 3 level camp, it was more of:
"Must survive this well to prepare for OBS." than anything else.
Indeed, throughout the camp there was this constant comparision of the camp to UG camp.
Like how their communication & organization was not exactly brilliant; & the instructors themselves looked damn sian.

However, this camp has had a relatively large impact on me due to all the experiences.
Settled to be slack for this camp so I didn't put in much effort in leading anyone really...
but yeah, it was nice to be observer for this camp

Wynette took over as central leader & Yap Jin as advisor
Sarimbun your father's road ar?! No instructor...is Yap Jin's
He spam Sarimbun 10 times alr, got the pro-kia vibe that natural leader have.

Learnt not to sterotype that high-matainence people suck at camp.
They're brave in their own sense; and all the OCD must make the 3 days alot cleaner.
Also learned what not to do as leader; like assume power=respect
Those kind of I-say-what-you-must-follow leadership can only be earned, not assumed.
Kena suan-ed alot throughout the 3D2N...humbling time.

Out of 10 star, maybe I rate this 7/10...nt pro, but I learned things.
Hopefully the skills I found can help better myself 0.o
Now need pack for OBS...dang.

ThE SinneRs, ThE CreatoRs, ThE slackeRs.

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aT appRoximately.. 8:28 AM

Saturday, May 15, 2010

The world, from another's eyes, is never alike.

lol, hiatus for 5 months...weird...
I'll just sweep through what happened I guess 0_o

Fencing Interschool 2010:
BPGHS won 'B' Div (Women) Bronze & Team gold
'C' Div (Men) Bronze & Team Silver
good job all my brudas :P BPFT glory is restored once again.
Sad that I couldn't be there for the B div women's comp, neither a fencer nor supporter....

Sec 3 really puts things into perspective...study-CCA balance really becomes outstanding...
Remember how in Sec 1 being captain seemed so cool, & having 4 CCAs was easy...
Now I'm having issues coping with 3 CCAs & the workload is heavier :x

Mid-years are okay I guess...did my best for some papers, so no regrets there...
Being in 3L1 gives me a very...interesting perspective on the school hierachy.
Surface-wise, every class is the same...
Beneath that, 3L1 is pretty much the express 3A.

I duno..I guess I slacked alot in sec 2; aim for T class but never study...
sian...but I don't regret making it to 3L1, even if it screws any dream of being a doctor..

In theory, L1 should be Biology specialists, cuz we're the only class taking bio only.
But yeah, everyone is more liberal than other classes...
Alot of fun, not much academic motivation...so yeah, really should mug more 0_o
We have lots of fun though; best 6 mths of school I had so far :P

Fencing camp is kinda killing me...shitload of planning to do...
The proposal is semi UG style: Arial font 12, black header tables & RAMS.
Honestly, I've overdone it...but its fun in a masochistic sorta way. lol.

Teams and roles are all planned out, now just need yippy to settle the catering ==
And find out all the TBC stuff 0_o hope its not cancelled.

Alright, need to go pack for level camp...hope its slacker than S&G camp...
okay, no need to hope. It will be ;P

ThE SinneRs, ThE CreatoRs, ThE slackeRs.

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aT appRoximately.. 10:21 AM

Saturday, January 9, 2010

70th post already...time flies 0.o

2010, new year, new responsibilites for Sec 3...haiz...
I've already been in 3L1 for 1 week, and its kinda cool.
Not that I don't miss 202, but I don't mind being in 3L1 for the rest of the year lar....
Can't say the same for others classes though 0.0 sec 3 already so stress for them..

CCA roadshow over already, fencing managed to get 50+ applicants.
Alot more than I expected, since we only ever take in 10...but still cool.
Talk until throat pain sia..had to use the epee to block people walking Xp

other than that...seeing all the sec 1s made me feel old >.<
Sudden realisation that I'm sec3 now, and nothing can reverse it feeling...
Especially when the ICA letter to get my IC came already...dang..

Sec 4s ROD soon, then more leadership responsibilities for sec 3..
hopefully this year will be good, slack b4 O levels come 0.o

ThE SinneRs, ThE CreatoRs, ThE slackeRs.

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aT appRoximately.. 4:30 PM

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Blogging on Wi-Fi from my chalet == wonderful.

Spending 3 days in a chalet cuz my dad wants me to bond with my siblings...
its not really working; we're destined to fight over stuff..haiz...
the chalet is at some club, so its kinda cool...we keep the aircons on at 16 degrees 24/7 Xp

other than that, there's nothing much to say or do here.
It rains too much, and I have too much stuff in school anyway...
tmr have to wake up at 5.55am, since the chalet is 1 hour from BP ==
seriously, its not a holiday, its a torture...

Had the CCA open house today, for the primary school kids...fencing didn't have to anything 0.o
primarily UGs doing open house, so they march and showed alot of stuff to the prischoolers
and the only advertising fencing had was the kids looking at us pack up ==
great impression: "Join us, and spend hours packing up the equipment ^^"

haiz...tomorrow BPL then G7, so helping fencing then Girl Guides =/
skipped 1 session of GG already, but doesn't seem to make much difference...
appealing for Physics instead of Life, since everyone I knw is in Physics ==
Moo is 119 in level, but his A1 in science got him into Tri...zi kua can...

alright, now is 2.30am and I still can't sleep ==
thinking about my CIP for the remainder of the month...everyday for 2 weeks....
My sis got the full 40 points for LEAPS, so I'm aiming for that too ^^
choinging CIP to make the list longer Xp occupies alot of time though 0.o

Considering how my future is screwed, this actually seems fun....

ThE SinneRs, ThE CreatoRs, ThE slackeRs.

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aT appRoximately.. 10:22 AM

Friday, October 30, 2009

Sian...school over liao, waiting for the holidays to get packed, as usual Xp
Signed up for Science Centre, YTSA, G7, BPL and alot of others...
From my birthday onwards, everyday is more or less got stuff to do..

Been reading up on superstitions lately =p cuz bored and they're cool.
So far have alot of weird ones, mainly about death and whatnot
Like how wearing opal is bad for you unless its your birthstone,
how if you say goodbye to a person on a bridge you can never see them again...
creepest is if a mirror drops by itself and breaks, someone is that house...=x

ignoring that, I have fencing on monday...same day as my birthday =p
cool (and no, I do not want to skip fencing on that day, becuz fencing is fun ^^)
but not expecting many presents or anything, considering how awkward the date is...

But hey, since I was bored, I decided to check out stuff about my birthday 0.o
For the day you're born on:

Monday's child is fair of face;
Tuesday's child is full of grace;
Wednesday's child is full of woe;
Thursday's child has far to go;
Friday's child is loving and giving;
Saturday's child works hard for a living.
But the child that is born on the Sabbath day
Is bonny and blithe and good and gay

November:

Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Thinks forward
Unique and brilliant
Extraodinary ideas
Sharp thinking
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Can become good doctors
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Secretive
Inquisitive
Knows how to dig secrets
Always thinking
Less talkative but amiable
Brave and generous
Patient
Stubborn and hard-hearted
If there is a will, there is a way
Determined
Never give up
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Loves to be alone
Thinks differently from others
Sharp-minded
Motivates oneself
Does not appreciates praises
High-spirited
Well-built and tough
Deep love and emotions
Romantic
Uncertain in relationships
Homely
Hardworking
High abilities
Trustworhty
Honest and keeps secrets
Not able to control emotions
Unpredictable

>.< weird things, birthdays...

ThE SinneRs, ThE CreatoRs, ThE slackeRs.

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aT appRoximately.. 8:15 AM